innalillah wainnalillahhirajiun to my cousin.
haizzz.
Abdul Hakim Bin Md Azman.
21 years old.
hmm, cancer.

Ya Allah, ampunilah dosa-dosa Arwahnya Ya Allah.
meskipun dia tidak melakukan larangan-laranganmu, ampunilah dia.
terangilah kuburnya.
masukkannya ke dalam Syurga yg telah kau janjikan.
relakanlah kepergiannya dari sisi keluarga yang tercinta.

im sad.
im sad.
im sad.
haizzz.
on Thursday, at 7.50, my cousin just passed away.
its a good thing, before the breath out his last breath, his father was beside him.
haizz.
lost another family member.
firstly dad, but i was too young to understand a thing.
then now, cousin.
i had trouble sleeping cause his face keeps popping in my eyes.
and i am scared.
after hearing what the death person thinggy said, im really scared.
i've done a lot of sins.
to ppl, animals, nature and God.
friends, family, animals, nature and God, please forgive me.
i'll try to change.
cause i dont wanna go to hell.
i wanna go to the land that God had promise us Muslims.
thats also if we do the right thing and avoid the bad things.
i hope, i can sleep well today.
Sya, out of sight, out of mind.
Your cousin's no longer with u anymore, let him go.
haizz.
looking at Cik Ya and Cik Man cry, i started to cry.
i couldnt bare another lost in my family.
its torture.
but hey, God loves them.
thats why God takes them away from us.
hmmph.


Morning, after showering, get ready and cabed to Nyai Milah's house, to go to the funeral.
reach there, mum open the face, and his face shape was really2 like a skull left.
his cheeks are not that visible.
haizzz.
yada3.
went to kubur.
yada3.
trained to woodlands lah.
look at phones with abg bull while waiting for mum to come.
yada3.
bought e63 with Ione plus plan.
yada3..
home..
hmmmmpphhh.

today, training.
kindda good.
cause i played WA.
haha, fun seyh.
(:
one of the match, we won seniors.
7-4.
haha! :D
yada3.
went to lot one with Yi Hui.
bought stuffs.
trained home.
asked stephanie to help bring home my stuff from locker, but she left it mrs lee pigeon hole.
called her minutes ago.
and now, posting on blog.
wee, cant wait for next thurs.
haha :D
k ah, now wanna tell abg bull that my phone actually already had 1Gb memory card w/o me knowing.
later, meeting mum to go to Singtel shop again.
then maybe buy mp3.
haizzzz...
BYE!

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.