LIFE.
ups and downs happens everyday.
without you planning it to happen.
of course, even when you plan smth to happen, smth else will.
everyone has faced it before.
everyone including me.
one moment i would say, "this is a great day!"
and the next, "this is really not a good day for me! ARGHH!"
its been happening to me for the past 2 days.
why?
cause what you plan doesnt always turn out right.
and what you dont plan, suddenly pops out and changes your plans.
friends, im sorry if i've been away from you guys lately.
i cant spent time with you guys during recess anymore.
the only time left for us to be together is before and after school.
before school, we might talk a little.
but i was really hoping to catch up with you guys more after school.
im not saying that you dont try to spent your time with me.
i think you're trying your best.
but yes, we are all busy people.
and i should really just understand that.
and yah, maybe for me, some things are better left unknown.
lately, i've been having my moodswings.
and i wasnt anrgy at nadiah, there was clearly no point for me to be angry with her.
im just not understanding whatever thats happening.
izyan has to spent time with ***** and balance with her studies, nisa has to get a little tutoring for physics and math, humairah wants to complete her hmwrk before going home, nadiah wants to play frisbee with the others and do her hmwrk, and nina yah, hmwrk too i guess.
i admit that i just realised all this.
i admit that i have to think about all this and not just think about myself.
and i admit that i have not been a good friend.
for that im super sorry.
but guys, im sorry if im not gonna talk to you a lot these days.
i've done another fvcking stupid mistake and i do not wish to share it with anyone.
i just have to learn and move on, not looking back and not repeatting those mistakes.
guys, but if you really dont want me to know smth, just say it immediately, before i think that you guys are hiding smth from me.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.
im a very weak girl who can just break down and cry when i feel hurt or bullied.