I am who I am

2011-02-27T17:00:00.003+08:00

HAHAHA YEAH, im perfectLy fInE, truSt me. (:

just smile and walk away.

OK MY BLOGS DEAD.

2011 has been quite fine.

errr, studies got tougher.

nina & jannah >

played wii at humairah's house.

went for the malay theatre thing :D

MADRASAH >

ok tmrw's school

and training.

and ngaji.

WOW!

ok idk what to say. BYE!

SyahirahKamaruizaman.

2010-12-28T17:28:00.000+08:00

2010-12-26T18:48:00.003+08:00

Patience.

2010-12-24T16:23:00.002+08:00

WOOHOOOO! I HAVE A DEAD BLOG. OK sorry.
ERM yah, as the picture shows, its been a great December. Family from KL came down and we went to a few places like USS, Sakura, Orchard and Marina Bay Sands. oh and Bugis.
:)
hmm, there's nth much to say actually.
except for the fact that I WISH DREAMS ARE TRUE!
:)

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

2010-12-12T21:44:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAH.
dude, u think im still like this?
u asked me to give up for dk how many times ready right?
i listened to you.
eh no, i think i listened to myself.
then now you wanna talk about this somemore for what?
just in case eh?
BLAA SUA!
u want to clarify things?
srsly, how many times ready ah??
padan muke, sekarang dah malu kan?
dah takut eh?
tak tahu nak reply?
eh, blame yourself please.
dont scold those two..
u started this shit and u know it.
-.-
u know that im emotionally affected easily, yet u didnt take that to consideration is it?
huh?
pfft.
serious ah, kalau satu sekolah tahu yang the ____ got kicked in the ass by me, you'll be a big joke.
dah lah eh, friend friend semue, lupekan saje..
kau dah buat aku mcm gini, abe maseh brani nak buat baik?
relax sua!!

-SyahirahKamaruizaman
ah kan, aku dah bbual macam minah! AMEK KAU LAGI!!

2010-12-06T16:14:00.002+08:00

ok forget it. my plan of flooding my blog is cancelled.. stupid, post so long then cancelled -.-
AHHH WHATEVER LAH.
CUT SHORT.
SEC1 PREORIENTATION CAMP = FUN!
KL= SUPER TIRING BUT FUN YET I REGRET A BIT CAUSE I DIDNT ACTUALLY ROUND THE WHOLE LEVEL BEFORE BUYING MY STUFF -.-
FRIENDLY= OK LAH HAH..
TMRW= ERRR NETBALL PICNIC.

OK BYE!

2010-12-06T15:47:00.003+08:00

OK START READING FROM HERE!! :)

ok i just realised that my blog is damn dead. LOL.
so i shall start from here (:
hmm lets see. ok.
25-26 nov was NETBALL CAMP! :)
kindda like bonding camp or smth lah.
water bomb was the best part i guess. hmmm, then at night performance yada3..
after the camp, had training!
then home before going to woodlands checkpoint area to get the shoelace for the KSS OPEN HOUSE 2010~
went with NINA and JANNAH then walked to my house.
did the drawing kindda stuff then sent them to cwp.
haha at cwp....
while we were queueing up to buy my maid's chicken porridge, the aunty suddenly melatah-ed and said "OH PANTAT LEMBU!!!''
hahah damn hillarious and random.
then went down to buy my grandmother's beef burger.

WELL, SINCE THERE WERE A FEW STALLS SELLING IT, WE DECIDED BY ASKING EACH OTHER....
"eh, nak pakcik ke mamat?"
well, we chose mamat and it was a bad decision.
the burger wasnt nice at all.
-.- pfft! damn you mamat! luckily you didnt flirt!
:D

kk next was open house..
aiya, lazy talk about this.
NEXT!!!!!

2010-11-16T21:49:00.001+08:00

ARGH FREAK IT LAH!
THINK THINK THINK!
I HATE THINKING LAH DEYYY!
URGH FINE, WHATEVER.
I'LL DO IT. -.-

2010-11-15T14:27:00.000+08:00

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

2010-11-14T12:59:00.001+08:00

What if..
What if everything were to change next year?
What if...
What if i were to hate you?
What if...
What if i excel and you fail?
What if...
What if i start to be mature enough to know that i dont want you anymore?
What if...
What if you were to hate me?
What if...
What if i were to change?
Would i get away from you?

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.
Sent from my Nokia phone

2010-11-11T19:57:00.002+08:00

WOOHOOO! 8GB OF SPACE TO SPAM!!
NYAHAHAHHA, NEW MP3.
OKAY BYE, im crazyyyyyyy~

GRACIA ;D

2010-11-09T13:52:00.001+08:00

Oh bitch.
I hate you.
LOL. I sound weird.
Haizzz, I have no idea why I didnt like you from the start.
Oh whatever.
I dislike you now even more.
And you better now ask ..... for stead ah!
Cheyy!
Haha, ok now im really weird.
Please lah, just dont.
I dont wanna hate you even more.
And I dont wanna hate him too.
I errrr, forget it :)

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

Sent from my Nokia phone

2010-11-08T11:07:00.001+08:00

:( im sick! the area behind my ear is swelling and i can barely chew!

Oh and i hate my dream. I was being kicked into F&N course -.-

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

Sent from my Nokia phone

2010-11-04T23:02:00.001+08:00

HAHAH, IM CRAZY TONIGHT!!! LALALALALA~ HAPPY DEEPAVALI TO THOSE CELEBRATING IT!!! :)

Sent from my Nokia phone

2010-11-02T18:41:00.001+08:00

Didnt know that my feelings for you would last this long. Its been more than 2 months since the time that we confessed. But now i dont think we should have done it in the first place :( yes, it made me happy. But no, this is not what i wanted it to be. I knew that i had to wait for the right time before telling u my feelings, but u kept pestering me, what could i do.. Now darling, why cant i forget you? U want me to give up, i know you'd be proud if i do, but idk why i just cant.. What am i suppose to do now? :(

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.
Sent from my Nokia phone

Take some time

2010-10-29T17:34:00.001+08:00

Why must it always be the girls who have to understand the guys?? Dude, you've asked me to understand more than once already, then why cant you understand me? U know how i feel bout u, but u seem to care more about urs.. And hey, being frank is not the best thing to do. U know that im someone who's emotionally affected easily, yet u still do this to me.. Yes, im wasting my time,okay. Dude, i think i just want you okay?! But i know you dont. F this shit.. My friend was right, YOU DID STOP. BUT IT WAS AT A WRONG TIMING. YOU STOPPED ONLY AFTER YOU GAVE ME HOPE. Thanks alot.

Sent from my Nokia phone

Misunderstanding

2010-10-27T08:40:00.001+08:00

This is why girls are the one who thinks a lot.. But i didnt, cause i was 'blinded by love'. I should have took that few days to know u better.. But i didnt. Damn i was stupid. Now we're 'fighting' , oh well, maybe its for the better. Maybe we're not meant for each other.. Maybe you and her might be together.

Sent from my Nokia phone

When a 1month-old baby sleeps on your lap, you just cant help but feel relaxed and not think of anyth..

2010-10-26T20:08:00.001+08:00

Sent from my Nokia phone

2010-10-26T13:22:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAH, the sheep has FACIAL HAIR!

2010-10-26T13:18:00.001+08:00

HAHAAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!
BEST! :)

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

Goodbye, love.

2010-10-25T14:38:00.001+08:00

Its never easy to say goodbye. I know you had to think properly about the words before you entered 'send'. But u dont seem to somehow think bout how i felt.. I guess u just made everything clear.. I dont have to think about it anymore. No more worries, no more thinking about the consequences. A friend once said that i should prioritize between my feelings and the consequences.. Well, i guess not any more.

Sent from my Nokia phone

Cikgu rasidah called me gatal :( oh well, i deserved it. HAHA.

2010-10-24T20:40:00.001+08:00

Sent from my Nokia phone

2010-10-24T20:35:00.001+08:00

gosh, i feel like an idiot trying to use tumblr. HAHAH!

2010-10-24T17:19:00.002+08:00

lets make this short and sweet, i ♥ my girls :)

Raja bersiung was a nice show, srsly.
funny & nice.
HAHAH, ludba 2 is very kecoh and i pity cikgu cause her seat wasnt the best one..
err, took pictures in school.
CWP, banquet and arcade then home :)

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.
love you girls alot.

2010-10-21T19:53:00.000+08:00

HIPHIP HOORAY!!!

k, errr, yah, im just happy with my results

and i freaking hope that i can appeal for THAT course :)

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

2010-10-21T19:50:00.002+08:00

i really hope its not k?

but the way everyth is now, haizzzz.

idk too.

im just still waiting.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

i enjoyed talking to you too.

2010-10-18T17:31:00.002+08:00

SABRINA~

babe, this post will be for you okay? :)

girl, you've been there for me all these while..
you've never failed to give me advices when im in need.
but im stubborn and too "in love" to not listen to you..
for that im sorry.
and i know you're strong girl.
i didnt expect u too cry for super long that saturday.
you told me that you're a strong bitch and i believe that you are!
i think you're like the fastest one to know bout my updates among my qps friends..
:) i love you babe!
and i trust u..
you've been there for me especially this year, and i'll try my best to be there for you too.
please know that im here for you and i'll listen to your problems okay?
HAHA, and i know how much you hate that MINAH :P

OHH WAIT2!!
lastly, thanx for rubbing it in my face how much a__r sucks okay?
haha, actually, there's no point in me hiding the name..
cause there's a picture of us below..
HAHA, I LOVE YOU SABRINA :)

HAH, _l_

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

2010-10-18T16:08:00.002+08:00

ku harapkan penantian ku ini membawa hasil.
jika tidak, tidak ku terkata-kata.
tidak ku terfikir bagaimana akan ku memperlakukan mu jika begitu.
kerna sayang, ku rasa kau adalah yang ku tunggu-tunggu.

PREFECTS
wooooh, awesome day.
the course was awesome..
cheered me up yo :)
except for the fact that err, your name was heard everytime..
BUT ASYRAF WAS AWESOME LAH!
so was my group consisting of gracia, me, eugene and aliff :)
HEHEHE, eugene pole dance until he fall down and almost sprained his ankle!
HAHAH! :D
after that, err, lot one with syya to borrow and return books :)

-SyahirahKamaruizaman
dari mata ke hati.

2010-10-17T16:05:00.002+08:00

haha, dead blog..
dead dead dead.
oh well, HELLO! (:
freedom!
woooh!

i read those msgs from this a few hours ago.
and the words you said still makes me melt.
sayang thrice, darling once, wow.
that is so not you..
and im glad u said those words.
it reassured me.
but can u please reassure yourself and me that it wasnt just an infatuation?
cause i know my feelings werent.
i'll be waiting.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

i think its you.

2010-09-16T20:50:00.000+08:00

i want this to work.
to make it work, we need to work.
work.
work requires effort.
i'll try.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

RAYA :)

2010-09-10T13:45:00.002+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL MUSLIM FRIENDS OF MINE :)

heh, today's raya!

woohoo!

most of my guests are home ready.

the dudes are at the mosque for friday prayers.

here i am, tranferring pics before packing my bag to go to Malaysia tonight :)

HEH (:

ystrdy's kenduri was awesome.

got a msg from someone then i broke a freaking plastic fork.

HAHA, :D

thanx for making my day ahmm~

Okay, anyw, yah, i'll be back on sunday

and I HAVE NOT completed my hmwrks yet.

AWESOME MEN!

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

selamat hari raya semua!

2010-09-04T13:32:00.001+08:00

mehh~
results sucks.
the week was fine.
i am still having stomach probs.
damn.
madrasah very2 soon.
bye.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman
thanx eh awak, kite tunggu awak 2 jam tau!

2010-09-02T18:00:00.002+08:00

OMG!

i forgotten that i was at blogger since just now!

hahaha!

crazy girl ready

and yeah, erm, was emcee for t;chers day.

since then, ups and downs in life liao.

but still, super hyper most of the time. HAHA

not so sleepy in class and im starting to love my duty ;)

I AHMMM YOU OKAY? ;)

and i cant start doing better if you dont.

once again, i AHMM you and thats it :)

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.
ahmmmm~

2010-08-26T22:59:00.001+08:00

urgh! im srsly super pissed with MSN now.
damn you men!
its 11 and im still awake. thanx ah!
stupid, upload video also so slow.
oops, im speaking like some bitch now.
okay then, BYE!

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.
ticktockticktockticktock

2010-08-26T20:57:00.002+08:00

im very tired now. im super tired cause of what i have to do, super tired cause i have to stay back everyday and super tired of boys.
cheyy, no lah.
haha!
but yah, im just super tired.
been sleeping at 10.30pm these days, later ready for me okay, btw.
and waking up before 5.
TIRED okay.
just TIRED.
have been skipping Terawih, damn!

-SYAHIRAHKAMARUIZAMAN.

ki, hopeless.

2010-08-18T20:54:00.002+08:00

fvck, im speding my hmwrk time just for this second post.
kalau korang tak bace, i shall slap your faces okay!

read those words properly my friends.
is that how our friendship is?
hmm, i dont think i have to say a lot lah.
its not that im supporting either side, and its not that im NOT supporting you guys.
im just damn confused now.
FVCK lah.
korang, jgn gini boleh?
i think the best thing is for both of you to sit tgthr and get things settled lah.
irritating tau gini..
kalau korang tell each other what you feel is irritating or whatsoever, kan senang?
semue org happy.
tak perlu nak post kat FB ke, tell specifically a few friends.
Nina, im sorry, i dont think i can fully support you if you guys dont make any efforts to make things better.
and to the others, its not that nina made me support her, or i believed whatever she said, its just that i think their disagreement with each other is making me pick one side.
sorry.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.
BLEAH LAH KORANG!

2010-08-18T20:39:00.003+08:00

hmmph.

Had me convinced that I just wasn't enuff, me and you fussing and fighting cussin all of that stuff now I know, tht I mightve dun you wrong, didn't know I'd pay so long, til u did the same
I know I'd dun u wrong I was making it up to u, I apologised in a million ways but I thought that was that, but I guess u got me bak, didn't know itd be like that, but u did the same

[Bridge:]
Now we're caught in a circle
A constant battle
The day that u hurt me
The clouds cast a shadow on us
And I hope that your happy we're even now, so cry baby cry

[Chorus:]
Let me see you Cry cry cry
I need to see u cry cry cry
Until your tears run dry dry dry
Like the deserts need the rain
Want ya tears to fall down on me [x2]

Before the love just turns to hate
Before I ask for u to stay
And just before u walk away

[Verse 2:]
What is this, what happens to relationships, started off so good and ended up so bad baby I just wanna know, OoH Tell me do u know, baby
Before we knew it we were at it again, no no no, somehow I don't think we can ever be friends, wish it wasn't so
Wish it wasn't so, but u did the same...

[Bridge]

[Chorus]

So we go on and on on this merry go round trying to chase a love that can never be found time to say goodbye and step off of it now,
It's over girl it's over [x2]

Let me see you Cry cry cry
I need to see u cry cry cry
Until our tears run dry dry dry
Like the deserts need the rain
Want your tears to fall down on me [x2]
Before the love just turns to hate
Before I ask for u to stay
And just before u walk away

cry.
lets see.
nad cried, rin cried, who else?
crying, something that we think of it this way, it sounds normal.
but it contains different reasons to why someone cries.
they might cry because they just lost smth, lost someone that they love, they didnt get smth that they want to, their tired, they got to know some bad news and lots more.
hmm, so yah, ppl cry a lot.
because of diff things.
hey come on, even i would be lying if i said that i've never cried before.
sigh.
crying.
does it srsly help?
idk, im asking you, so ask yourself.

ku takkan nangis kernamu.
apa gunanya?
bukannya kau akan tahu.
bukannya kau akan melalukan apa.
tiada sebab untukku menangis ketika ini.
tapi mengapakah hatiku berasa seperti ia telah dilukai.
seperti diriku ditipu.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman
BLEAH!~

2010-08-14T12:43:00.000+08:00

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.
thanx eh, thanx a lot. for nothing.

2010-08-10T10:15:00.001+08:00

Kampong~

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

errr...

2010-08-06T15:08:00.001+08:00

BLOGGER IS AN ASS WHICH I HATE FVCKING A LOT!
POSTED LONG2, THEN CANNOT.
ASS!
BYE!

2010-08-02T21:22:00.002+08:00

nobody knows you best, except for yourself and your parents.
when i got home from religious class, mum said : " asal moody jer?"
mum, you know too well.
and for that, i love you mum.
you might not know my problems, but you do know that im facing them.
im sorry i dont tell you everything.
but somethings that i did are just way beyond your limits.
im sorry mum, im sorry for hurting you behind your back and not being the best daughter a mum could wish for.
thanx mum, i love you.

you, its been a longlong time since i've known you.

idk why the hell i keep falling for you.

and everytime i fall for you, the same thing will happen.

im dumb, i know.

im super dumb.

and i cant believe i made you promise me stuff..

you do know that promise is a promise right, you've said it for yourself.

then what's this?

argh, forget it.

wait, i cant.

dude, i think i really just like you.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

2010-08-01T18:29:00.000+08:00

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.
i miss you, dad.

2010-07-28T19:55:00.001+08:00

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.
malu-malu kucing ♥

2010-07-25T12:29:00.002+08:00

the jugglers in TN1A :)
only 10 people came ystrdy, including me.
thought that it would be very quiet and boring, but WOOOHOO!
turned out to be fun, especially with the types of people in my class and ustazah.
only did discussions bout Hadas And Puasa.
the guys were srsly sick when they were discussing bout hadas.
what do you expect right?
puasa was okay ah.
SYED " ustazah ustazah! makan chewing gum batal tak? tak telan per!!"
HAHA! :D
USTAZAH: "APE LAH?! alah, dont cry... "
HAHAHA! :D
ended at 5.30.
went home with nadhirah and ex.
home?
watched horror movie on RTM1 at night.
it was barely scary but i still covered my eyes!
HAHA, loser sia sya.
THANX BBY FOR ACCOMPANYING ME DURING THE MOVIE! :)

today, fasting.
so woke up at 4.30.
eat.
sleep til 9+.
did summary but exceeded by 30 words, so will continue later.
HEH (:
OHH YAH!
im suppose to do my malay compo now.
HAH.
granny's going geylang today. :(
nvm, will just order food then.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.
im am a disgusting girl who's trying to be good. so live with it!

2010-07-23T22:49:00.002+08:00

a short recap.

Thursday:
school with yi'en since it was raining.
walked behind gracia and ehem2.
lessons were fine.
malay class was fun but we learned a lot at the same time.
:)
CE was kindda cool, we broke a lot of paper clips.
texted.
BLEAH.
rehearsals till 5.55?
walked to cck with Felicia and trained to wdl then walked to somewhere.
something2..
fvck lah, i feel horrible now.
k, then, the rest of the night, wasnt happy at all.
didnt replied jerald and tempe's text properly..

Friday:
woke up late and purposely went late.
felt disgusting.
Miss tan didnt come, so we made use of the time to eat a proper meal during recess.
physics, slept in class during the extra2 things but woke up in time when Mr foo starts to give out the notes.
HEH (:
then geog and math.
HAH, math, ms low forgotten that she still had class.
so the class was damn chaotic with the guys playing that small ball and the girls talking loudly. :)
went to wak ri's house for lunch and nap.
*see, sleep again, PIG right?*
then rehearsals which ended at like what, 6.30?!
went to mac with nin, jann and tomoe.
bussed from de la salle and trained with IZY.
walked home, reach at 7.30 and rushed to ngaji.
awesome lah, my phone got confiscated.
luckily he didnt read the msgs.
if not, both of us dead lah dear...
hmm, was released at 9.30.
walked to my house area with the others but another 3 extra guys extra at the back but the stopped at 7-11.
hmmph, home.
ate cheese fries from Rin.
thanx!
now this..

OUH! see the picture there?
HAHA, refers to 2 people!
1) fuchun/syed nye kwn nye kwn/(his name)/ludba.
2) HAH, you.
whaaacrap, now a days people like to stare a lot leh.
HAHA! 2 stared at me like dk what shit like that..
i not food, no need stare.
im just a disgusting girl.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.
12/08/10, i'll wait and see if i get a text from you kay? i'll WAIT.

2010-07-22T21:08:00.002+08:00

LIFE.
ups and downs happens everyday.
without you planning it to happen.
of course, even when you plan smth to happen, smth else will.
everyone has faced it before.
everyone including me.
one moment i would say, "this is a great day!"
and the next, "this is really not a good day for me! ARGHH!"
its been happening to me for the past 2 days.
why?
cause what you plan doesnt always turn out right.
and what you dont plan, suddenly pops out and changes your plans.
friends, im sorry if i've been away from you guys lately.
i cant spent time with you guys during recess anymore.
the only time left for us to be together is before and after school.
before school, we might talk a little.
but i was really hoping to catch up with you guys more after school.
im not saying that you dont try to spent your time with me.
i think you're trying your best.
but yes, we are all busy people.
and i should really just understand that.
and yah, maybe for me, some things are better left unknown.
lately, i've been having my moodswings.
and i wasnt anrgy at nadiah, there was clearly no point for me to be angry with her.
im just not understanding whatever thats happening.
izyan has to spent time with ***** and balance with her studies, nisa has to get a little tutoring for physics and math, humairah wants to complete her hmwrk before going home, nadiah wants to play frisbee with the others and do her hmwrk, and nina yah, hmwrk too i guess.
i admit that i just realised all this.
i admit that i have to think about all this and not just think about myself.
and i admit that i have not been a good friend.
for that im super sorry.
but guys, im sorry if im not gonna talk to you a lot these days.
i've done another fvcking stupid mistake and i do not wish to share it with anyone.
i just have to learn and move on, not looking back and not repeatting those mistakes.
guys, but if you really dont want me to know smth, just say it immediately, before i think that you guys are hiding smth from me.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.
im a very weak girl who can just break down and cry when i feel hurt or bullied.

2010-07-13T21:06:00.000+08:00

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.
you dont, do you?

2010-07-11T15:46:00.000+08:00

~Marina bay sands.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

2010-07-10T10:35:00.003+08:00

Random pic above (:

A summary of this week.

Hmm, tiring.

Fun.

Messy.

Loud.

And a lot of walking. :)

Tiring due to netball. Fun cause yah, we had quite a lot of activities and had a debate during Malay class. Messy, cause of CE when we flickered paint on the shirt. Loud, yah, when there's fun, ppl will always make loud noises. HAHA! :D and yah, a lot of walking cause i have been walking home quite a lot and have been walking home with Nina for 3 days straight. Jann, once i think. :)

Waiting, still waiting. Argh forget it, not waiting anymore.
Okay, i must be strong for this.
I aint waiting for you any longer.
Seriously lah eh, seronok sngt pe mainkan perempuan nye perasaan?
Kau dah marah ngan ex kau pasal die mainkan perasaan kau.
Abe sekarang kau nak kenekan aku balik pe sia?
Aku kenal kau dah lame tau.
Tapi aku tak pernah sangkakan yang kau macam ni.
Dude, you sounded very sincere.
Well, you SOUNDED like it, but you are NOT sincere right?
And hey, if you're really not messing with me, why are you suddenly quiet?
Why dont you call me or even talk to me when you see me?
Seriously lah dude, hendak seribu daya, tidak hendak seribu dalih.
thats all i have to say to you men.
Im just hoping that the next 3hours wouldnt change my anger towards you.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.
heh, nisa, thanx for helping out with that BOLDED peribahasa (:

2010-07-06T19:27:00.001+08:00

LALALALALALALALALALALALA~

I LAUGHED A LOT TODAY!
THE DAY ROCKED!
AND NOW IM SLEEPY.
BYE!

-SYAHIRAHKAMARUIZAMAN.
WHERE ARE YOUUUUUUUUUUU, YOU FRRRRRRREAAAAAAAK?

2010-07-05T17:36:00.002+08:00

get away from my mind you FREAK!
stop making me think of you!
stop smiling at me!
i want you to comfort me not SMILE!
dont you have feelings, you freak?!
FREAK!
i want you to talk back to me!
silent treatment is NOT the best way to "end a relationship"!
FREAK!

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.
go away lah FREAK!

Marina Barrage, Kampung

2010-07-01T19:47:00.004+08:00

Lots of fun for both "events".

Thats for short, deal with it.

Today, was great.

But i got really pissed for whatever thats happened.

Stormed inside class and just threw the paintbrushes on the floor.

Intended to go to Lot 1 with the retardz, but no.

i was just srsly too angry.

So, i thought of just heading towards yew tee, but i didnt wanna pass by ms low, so i WALKED to Lot One instead.

"Allahhummasolialasaiyidina muhammad wa ala ali saiyidina muhammad" and "ashhadualla illa haillallah, waashhaduanna muhamma dorosululah" were the only words i whispered to myself otw there.

It suprisingly made my eyes damn heavy.

Popular, Library, 911, Home.

Tomorrow's CFN.

Percussive.

Urgh, have to think of smth, FAST, to make me enjoy the freaking performance.

Saturday, Madrasah.

URGH!

if you do come, you better not act like nth's happen.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

cough!

2010-06-16T15:24:00.003+08:00

Beijing!

10.06.10-16.06.10

Awesome.

haizzz.
what to do what to do..
hendak seribu daya, ____ seribu ____

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

2010-06-09T18:53:00.001+08:00

FVCK.
im sorry.
damn am i a flirt.
but hey, i kindda enjoyed it.
wooho, at least im leaving without that crave in me.
FVCK.
NADYAAAAAAAA!

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.
i think i'll just wait. *ring2* the number u have called it not available.

2010-06-08T12:48:00.002+08:00

freak, moodswing.
im disgusted, angry & sad.

1: disgusted
ah girl ah, dont act pretty lehs.
Lick you like a lollipop?
aku bace aku dah geli lah woi.
and eh, jgn step minah lah dey.
kau tu dulu dan SEKARANG, selenger tau.
tak lawar pun.
so please, jgn act lawar.
everytime aku tngk gambar kau, aku srsly disgusted kau tahu tak?
eh serious ah, GELI!!!
stop it lah!!
cukup2 lah tu!

2:angry
k, i know this is somehow your problem.
but i feel uneasy not saying anyth.
you love god?
you know what people who love god do?
they PRAY.
thats the way for us to show our love towards god.
not just by saying that you love god.
URGH, tolong jangan gunekan name Allah sesuke hati kau please.

3: sad
ah boy ah, call me!!!
jangan gini ah, u making me wait every night for your call.
but i phone doesnt even ring.
what happened?
you dont like me anymore?
i really wanna talk to you, untuk lepaskan rindu.
im gonna be away soon.
and i dont want this feeling to stay with me while im gone.
sayang please, call me.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman
i sound both like a minah and a despo person here. DAMN IT!

"reunion''

2010-06-08T12:22:00.002+08:00

REUNION.

tak menjadi.

haha :D

Haizz, if only affs and haidah followed.

the more the merrier.

so yah, left home at 6.50 to play soccer with Faris, Zaki, Dur and eventually irwan and amir.

the first 3 played against a group of mat who suddenly tersesat.

funny sia their match.

HAHA.

then, bblt and faris house.

yada3.

the dudes were all so damn sick.

Babes and Dudes, i'll be away fr some time. so, wait, i know you wont miss me.

come on, who will?

so yah, bye.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

let me hear your voice one last time before i go.

family meeting

2010-06-06T20:39:00.002+08:00

today, no, NOW, is like the 2nd or 3rd family meeting.

and once again, im stuck in the room.

well, at least, my mum didnt ask me to close the door and i have a laptop with me! :D

WOOOHOO!

haha, bleah, will just have to wait till they're done so that i can eat.

tomorrow there's training.

will leave house damn early to go to the library and all with AZ.

at least i wont be lonely, :)

WOOHOO!

4 more days!!

and im gone for a week.

WOOHOO! :D

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

emotionless in everyway that's possible

2010-06-05T13:58:00.002+08:00

:S
looks like everyone's having their fun without me.
its okay, i'll have my fun too.
alone, maybe.
solitude.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.
damn am i patient, if not i'd start flirting with SARDINE by now.

2010-06-03T17:22:00.002+08:00

even when there's the sun, i'd still need an umbrella for shelther, as much as i need you.

gosh, im a badbad girl. even when you dont know i am.

haizzzz, im sorry.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

ily.

2010-06-02T18:28:00.002+08:00

IM BACK! :D

wooohooo! humanities camp was damn fun!

HAHA, and we met A LOT of people, i seriously mean a lot.

hehe :)

SARDINE!

why must you be attached ah?!

WHY?!

i fall near you, i "got" your number, "i" took you picture, then you attached.

-.-, ASSHOLE.

HAHAH! jkjk.

will be sincere with _____ instead. :)

boy ah, call me leh, u made me fall for dimple face. ;)

Day 1:

Reach, snack, Team bonding games, Labrador Park, Camp, ACM for night @ the museum, supper, sleep.

Day 2:

Shower, breakfast, Fort Canning, lunch, preparation for Open House(rehearsal for me), Shower(cut the queue), dinner, Open House(followed Ms Ho around all the way and went up stage), Played Games, Campfire, Supper, Sleep.

Day 3:

Shower, breakfast, Redhill/Henderson, lunch, pack bag, prize giving, left.

AWWW, see how short our camp was?

haizzz, sad men.

but srsly, DUDE, why you attached?!

you made me blush like hell when Ms Siew knew about it.

URGH! DAMN!

SYA!!!!!!~

forget bout it lah! will never happen, whats the possibility anyw?!

Continueing,

k erm, what else happened?

OHH, for the 3rd day breakfast, i was damn silly that i tripped over Daniel's bag and land exactly near _____.

HAHA, sardine. :P

yah, guess thats all?

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

make me fall FOR you again, and make the scratch heal cause the pain hurts even more when HE comes into the picture.

Jejak Warisan 26 May 2010

2010-05-27T17:40:00.003+08:00

JEJAK WARISAN @ KAMPUNG GLAM!

i LOVE cikgu Rasidah!

eventhough we didnt win.

whatever, we're happy anyw. :)

ran here ran there, took pic here and there, and lastly, GOT TO TALK AND TAKE PICS WITH NURADEE!

haha! :D

aww, ystrdy was cikgu's last day with us 2HML. :(

NVM, 23 june!

its so cool that im starting to talk to your gender otp.

even when we have nothing to talk about, we'll usually think of smth.

aww, today is the last day of the WEEK that im gonna talk to you..

i think....

its TIME.

haha, lame, sorry2..

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

will be off to Malaysia (kampung) tmrw morning. and on monday, i'll be at humanities camp till wed. :)

2010-05-25T17:08:00.002+08:00

WTH?!

seriously, WTH?! i didnt get selected for smth that i wanted and now i get short-listed for _____?!

WHAAAAAA?

URGH, I SERIOUSLY HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DO OR SAY NOW.

i want somebody to talk to me bout it.

but looks like that somebody is still in that very scary room, going through that very scary thing.

haizzzzzz.

i dont want to walk this earth, if i gotta do it SOLO

i need a duet. :)

& it suddenly feels easy to let ludba go. aww, im proud of this. :D

looks like new ludba is now in the picture. ;)

LALALALALA~

okay, i stupidly just cheered myself up.

i have no idea how, but i just did.

but, WTH?!

______?!

I WANT _____ INSTEAD!!!!

URGH!

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

i didnt feel that it was the right time to say those 3 words back to you. but i seriously hope that im not too late to do so.

2010-05-22T11:58:00.002+08:00

-flickr

LALALA~

netball was idk why but tiring. HEH (:

my stomach hurts that i cant cough properly. sigh.

ARGH, 2 more hours and i'll be off to religious class.

LALALA~

will be getting report book next week.

which means, JUNE HOLIDAYS IS COMING!

WOOHOO, but hey, holidays doesnt mean you're free from everyth.

will still have to come to school a lot.

sigh.

LALALA~

Taboo is FUN. :D

OHH!

Nadiah, you made me suffer ystrdy men.

i got disturbed by a few RP students otw home.

and it was difficult to carry the freaking big board cause the wind was strong and it kept moving..

ARGHH!

HAHA, nvm, thanks anyw bby. :) i love you!

LALALA~

aww, you called me dear twice. wait, does that MEAN anyth? :S

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

i love the way you make me melt, but i hate that you do.

SICK!

2010-05-19T10:59:00.002+08:00

*AAAAAACHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!*

thats how i was ystrdy. today, i seriously cant taste anyth. DAMN!

and its been so long since i've been on MC and ate cough medicine.

urgh, i bet everyones having a good time in school while im stuck here, with the comp and 3 story books.

LALALALALALA~

dont worry Sya, you'll be back in school tmrw!

WOOHOO!

hmmph, no one misses me i guess. thats SAD. :(

LALALALA~

will have to eat antibiotics later at 10pm, and eat cough and flu medicine at 6.

haizzzzz..

i think i'll use this time to edit my blog.

WEEEHEE! :)

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

why the hell am i jealous that she's talking to you? maybe cause i still rmmbr those times when we were together? and especially when you left me.

2010-05-15T23:57:00.003+08:00

LALALALA~
obvious enough? im bored.
and its 12+
i have NO idea why im still awake.
ouh, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST PLJ! ;)
15/05/10 was not a great day at all.
many things kindda happened at the same time.
saw Amir, Faris and ex, madrasah, some bitch told bby what she thought bout me, which was BULLSHIT! and then, you.
forget bout you, will not bother making myself hurt.

Bitch,
aku tahu kau lagi tua dari aku. tak semestinye kau boleh bbual pasal aku sesuke hati kau kan?! kau bbual, periksa dulu bleh tak? kau tu, bukan bestfriend aku, bukan mataer aku. you dont know ANYTH! and you talk as if you know EVERYTH. well, you DONT. kau seriously tak perlu nak buat baik dgn aku in front of me. TAK gune. kau buat baik, pastu, blakang aku kau bbual gitu ah?! kene2, bbual ngan bby aku pulak. eh serious ah. tak gune langsung uhh. and eh, kalau nak buat sesuatu tu, IKHLAS boleh?! banyak kau peyh ikhlas? org kalau cakap ikhlas, tak cakap macam kau lah eh. and PLEASE, kalau dah sayang seseorang tu, JAGE die baik2. kau jangan nak MASUK CAMPUR hal org lain lah eh! wth is problem with me huh? aku ade kacau kau dengan die? tak kan! abe sekarang ni, kau pulak ah nak masuk campur? BAGUS per?! dah lah eh girl, sekarang, aku betul2 malas nak layan kau. and im SURE you REALISE that. kalau tidak, aku tak tahu lah eh nak cakap ape dgn kau.. pandai2 pikir ah eh jalan ape yang terbaik.

OMG! i sound like freaking minah yang tngh nak cari pasal. sorry people, seriously angry with that someone. &&NISA! you wait, MONDAY. :) hahaha, and come on, you know i was just joking when i complained to you bout your present.. haha, but sorry tau kalau kau ambil hati.. :) hmmph, ohh, talked to ex. argh, prefer him than you lah!!! its okay, nvm, ex focus on one thing, i focus on another. haha, dah start bbual merepek balik. LALALALALA~

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.
sorry to all if im being a bitch in this post! ;)

2010-05-12T17:06:00.004+08:00

NISA! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! BLOGGER IS BEING AN ASS TODAY. SERIOUSLY. I POST NICELY THEN THEY SAY GOT HTML ERROR, ASS! SORRY NISA! BUT HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2010-05-10T16:15:00.003+08:00

i blog is 2 years old now, i think. and i only got 300+ posts. -.-, sucker! ANYW!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! HAHA, BELATED ACTUALLY. :)
14! WOOOHOO! lols.
Thanks to all who wished me ait? <3 you guys.

shed the last year before i turned 14. cause i've decided that the tears shall not come out anymore. eventhough crying helps at times, it only hurts more. i've decided to not be sensitive anymore too. well, not really, not TOO sensitive. i'd like to get you outta the picture cause you guys make me hurt. types like you only tend to hurt than cure. you guys cause the pain to occur and the only apology you could think of is "im sorry,, its my fault,,:(". you make us pissed at you more you know? haizzz, nvm, wont talk bout this anymore..

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.
i do not wish to know what's nadiah's present. o.O

2010-05-06T19:47:00.002+08:00

crying is either good or bad.
i have no idea which is the answer.
oh god, why must i cry everyday?
i just miss you too much.
i really2 miss you..
its been ages since i heard you, i saw you, and touch you..
i rmmbr you treating me specially..
i know you love me, cause i love you too.
my heart wont let you go..
i regret not being by your side at that point of time..
i regret not being very close to you before..
but now, whats the point of regretting?
yang pergi takkan kembali lagi.
dirimu takkan ku temui lagi..
ku merinduimu, ayah.

i've been really2 sensitive this week, thus, i cry a lot.
i keep on thinking that im unwanted, irritating and not useful at all.
i keep thinking that no one wants me..
no one cares bout me..
no one wants to be my friends..
friends, im sorry, but i really dont know why im having that thought in mind..
i know you're trying your best to be nice with me, but idk why it kindda seems like idc anymore.
im sorry friends..
gosh, i sound like loser.
well, you've gotta be a loser before even being a winner.
if not, its just beginners luck.

i know youre in a better place yeah, but i wish i could see your face oh, i know youre where you need to be, eventhough its not here with me

its almost 7 years, 7 years without you. and i miss you.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman
i dont even feel excited for saturday.

2010-05-01T20:57:00.002+08:00

today's birthday celebration was kindda weird.
i had school in the morning, got stuck in school, went to get my bday cake and went home.
ate, watched TV and all.
i feel very2 awkward.
hmmm, lets see what i want for my birthday.

pants, dress, water bottle, mascara, shoe, bangles, cardigen and FBT shorts.

:)

CHINA!
wait for me!
k, lame, i wanna buy a lot of stuff at china. :)

exams, exams, exams. lalalala! kindda busy now a days i guess. so yeah, BYE!

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.
will try my best to forget you.

2010-04-28T16:08:00.002+08:00

im SICK! argh, seriously wrong timing to get sick men! and i dont feel like coming to school tmrw. :( i've been going home straight after school lately, ready needed to rest. PANADOL, work men! work your magic! i dont wanna get sick. i wanna study like normal! urgh! finally, uploading old pics, like the Anak Wayang one. haizzz.

i miss you. i miss your smile. and i still shed a tear, every once and a while. and every though its different now, you're still here somehow, my heart wont let you go, and i need you to know, i miss you.
Eventhough this is suppose to be a song for like somebody who has passed away, im not referring it to anybody who's gone. boy, i miss you. and i still dont get why you text me every single night saying goodnight? isnt saying good morning better?

10 more days to the big day. daddy, i miss you. looks like im celebrating another year w/o you. i miss you daddy.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

2010-04-23T21:41:00.002+08:00

argh, finally the weekends. isnt that what ppl are looking forward since the start of the week? :) im tired. tired of all of your shits dude. get your point straight will you? im already confused about my studies, now you. another burden. urgh! just go and flirt with other ppl lah, and i'll disinfect my hand soon. anyone who wants to help me do it, tell me. really need to get you outta my mind men! cant stop thinking about you.. urghhh! done. thats it. no more talking about you.

arghh! exams has started, so sec 2 only i guess. the HE paper was not that bad ah, still quite doable. however you spell that. hmmph, this tuesday, english paper, followed by MT malay on wednesday. i feel so weak! i feel unprepared for MYE. o no! arghhh!

-SyahirahKamaruizaman
sorry for the lame ending.

2010-04-19T13:24:00.003+08:00

why am i receiving the silent treatment from you?
once again, im sorry if i wasnt supporting you..
but hey, you shouldnt be too affected by it you know?
haizzz, i really dont know what to say..
just please, talk to me again..
(ludba bilattum)

ARGH!
its IT ART now.
haha, free time ready, since im done with the poster..
wohooo!
art was crap, seriously crap.
lost my voice a couple of times..
hehe (:
lalalallalala!
bye! (:

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.
i like you.

2010-04-18T20:06:00.002+08:00

ARGHHH!

what happened?!

why are you suddenly not talking to me?!

what did i do men?

tell me!!!

text me!!

talk to me!!

ARGHHH!

dude, if youre not gonna text me by tmrw night, im gonna start thinking that you are behaving like this cause i didnt cry with u cause of achik spin..

which is a dumb reason..

not that i dont like achik, i do, but not until i ignore others lah!

walao!!

you better text me by tmrw or even, NOW men!

cause im ready pissed at you.

and..

and...

i cant smile w/o you.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

2010-04-14T18:28:00.002+08:00

NADIAH!
im so DAMN happy we're okay alr. so so glad.
im sorry for everyth. lets forget about it okay?
hehe, forgive and forget..
and i dont even think i'll ever say FUCK OFF to you EVER!
so chill, haha, eventhough you're not panicking ah.. :)
hopefully, after this, our friendship become freaking2 stronger kay?
i larrrrrrve you too bby!!
but i like muttttttt too! haha! :D
whoops! :p

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

2010-04-10T20:28:00.002+08:00

teman, maafkan diriku. selama ini, ku tahu ku bersalah. kadang kala, kata-kataku mmg tidak sensitive langsung. maafkan ku teman. ku terlupa akan jasamu selama ini. ku tahu, ku bersalah. teman, mungkin kita dua bersalah. kadang kala, ku tidak dapat menerima kata-katamu. dan ku tahu, kau juga begitu. tapi mengapa? mungkin kita dua tidak cukup memahami sama sendiri...? maafkan diriku teman. tapi, ku tidak mahu perselisihan ini berterus lagi. ku resah bersalah dan berasa sikit kesunyian. teman, terimalah diriku kembali dalam hidupmu. dan ku akan cuba menghargainya dan menyukaimu semula. tolong teman, ku tidak ingin ini berterusan. mungkin, selepas kau membaca ini,kau akan memanggilku lembek, kedi, pengecut. mmg ku takut, ku takut untuk melawanmu. dan ku juga takut hilang dirimu.

maaf, beribu-ribu kali maaf.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

2010-03-19T22:52:00.003+08:00

BLEAH :p
my shoulder hurts! DAMN! idk why.. ): maybe cause of training ah.. today's training was mostly court game.. only 4 sec 2s came! Li Hui, Yi Hui, Brenda and me! ): so i ran alone.. sad2.. then showered in school, and went to Limbang. saw 1st brother, asked him to treat me Bubbletea. :D thanx abg! not that your reading this, but still, thanx! :) went back to school. then to Nads house to watch My Name is Khan. VERY2 NICE! :D not really a sad show lah. but still, bby cried.. awww.. then did project while watching sony with a chance and eat mango. :) I <3 MANGO! :D then went home, dinner and get ready for religious class.. MEN! that dude is SHORT! he's like shorter than Nad i think! :D and his brother, -.-, dont know how to take opportunity betul lah! HEH! yada3, slacked under Eyqa's block then 7-11-ed and home. (:

SCHOOL IS STARTING THIS MONDAY! and im not quite done with my hmwrks! damn it! BLEAH! :p gonna finish it all by tmrw hopefully.. haizzzzz.. school school, then may exam ready.. -.-, freaking fast lah this year! haiyoyo..

Boy, you need some help. Seriously! I really have no more idea on how to talk to you alr. you make me go Oh-So MADDDDDDDDDD!

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

2010-03-17T23:19:00.002+08:00

i miss my old hair! i think. haha. idk. :p
OKAY! ANNOUNCEMENT PEOPLE!
its been 1 year since ..
haha, think of it yourself. you might be shocked, you might not. idk.
k shit, im talking crap. LALALALA! :D
school holidays are kindda packed?
theres a lot of homeworks, truthfully.
i mean come on, who doesnt agree right?
theres training on friday.
then after that, shower in school, do projects with nad then head to her house to watch movie with the others. :)
wooohoo!
HAHA.
i <3 my friends and family and god. thats all. okay? i love them.
lalalalalala. crap2!!!

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

2010-03-12T22:24:00.002+08:00

happy 300th post?
too bad, im NOT happy.
but yah, since its the last day of school, no, TERM, i should be.
finally can get some rest.
home's dark now. only left with one light one. bored men. no one to talk to.
cause w/o you, im lonely. sad. and disappointed at the same time.
its a good thing there was no netball today, at least i got to rest before gg for religious class.
girl, no need to snatch other people's phone lah.
i know lah he your bf.
but you dont really treat him as one kan?
ape salahnye adik angkatnye sendiri msg dgn die?
asal? jealous?
jaga lah die betul2 kalau nak sangat.
boy, why u making a big deal out of this?
i did say sorry right?
kenape masih marah lagi ni?
im scared to see your face tmrw, during religious class.
scared the expression i give would be different from what i SHOULD BE giving.
why are you so angry at me?!
i was just saying that i didnt like your replies kan.
tu pun tak happy per?
sorry if you dont like what i do, how i think.
but if you wanna like me, like me well.
cause you wont like it if you mess me up.
trust me.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

2010-03-10T20:34:00.002+08:00

ohh shit!
im a bitch alright.
damn it!
should think many2 times before saying smth next time..
BUZZZZZZZ!

im sorry. really2 sorry. didnt mean to make u hurt. just smth that i felt you should know.
i dont want us to be enemies. seriously. what's so good about having them anyw? i want us to be close! as close as how you want us to be. you know, i know. (: really2 sorry. just wish i could talk to you like before. :(

-SyahirahKamaruizaman

2010-03-09T22:04:00.002+08:00

talking to you now is getting very2 weird.
but why? fading? or growing?
i wanna be the second option.
maybe its me, but yah, why are your replies now just so insincere?
we barely even talk now a days.
i talk to AZ more than i talk to you.
eventhough he alr has a GF.
someone both of us know.
dude, i dont wanna see the same replies from u again till tuesday.
please..

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

2010-03-06T20:52:00.002+08:00

today was kindda okay i guess? went to natrah's house in the morning, and was late. BLEAH! then yada3, did project.. yada3, went home.. was rushing too.. saw a very2 ugly couple, like seriously2 ugly.. *pukes and stares* then madrasah was kindda fun? watched "the message". all the classes combined. SIOW! the ustaz from ngaji punye anak pun ada! he was like teaching the upper sec. LUCKILY NOT MY CLASS LAH! HAHA :D phewww! now, gonna try to finish my Home Econs... then tmrw need to do the Summary and English asknlearn thing.. :S

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

awkward + unexpected day

2010-03-05T18:53:00.002+08:00

BLEAH!

today, many unexpected events happened. Firstly, exam. thats expected lah. Then, i said hi to Monster. THEN, literature sucks. THEN, went to lot one. without nadiah ): THEN, went to Aries to buy earrings for 2 ppl. THEN, went to library. THEN, went to KFC. THEN, went to food culture with Mrs Gerrard (: THEN, went to library with nadiah. THEN, went around and around Lot one. THEN, saw insyirah from QPS, ehem2, Monster, Adib and gang, Kama's friends, F********. OHH! & the clan. yah, the clan part was the funniest. :D lazy to explain, but those who knows them, you should at least get an idea of what happened. :) THEN, reach woodlands. THEN, bus-ed with Run Hong and saw farah and maisarah. RUN HONG! DAMN IRRITATING LEHS YOU! WALAO! EMBARRASS ME LIKE SHIT LIKE THAT! HAHA! :D mrs gerrard was awesome. today was awesome. except for the fact that im having cramps. SHIT! bleah!

BITCH!! WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?! SEKEJAP EMO, SEKEJAP OKAY.. BUANG TEBIAT! GO DIE! GO DIE! GDL!

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.
(failure in physics and lit) :D

2010-02-28T13:49:00.002+08:00

a sudden glow in me, once the sun sets at dawn.

OKAY! training was really2 tiring on friday. we had to do A LOT OF RUNNING. damn it! luckily, this week no training, so yah, can rest like shitz, but CT, so yah, BOO! :p erm, i know not many people read my blog, but yah, i still wanna say smth:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RIANA RIZAL AND MOHAMED HAZWAN!! :D

and for tmrw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHUA YUJUAN! :D

okay, thats all i think. cause i really2 have nth much to say, since there's just a lot of math homeworks to be done, that i cant even study other subjects. -.-, hate you math!, for now. :)

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

A brand new start

2010-02-25T20:07:00.003+08:00

Yes, as stated clearly on the title, "A brand new start"

I've finally realised that all these while, what i did was wrong.

Some, i cant actually say it. A little too personal.

But yah, mostly, about guys, friends, studies and all.

Guys, easily and simply said, i fall for them too easily.

And im sure many people would agree on that. That's what you get for being a naive girl.

Dont be, it ain't good.

Friends, i dont actually think that i've been treating them very2 well all these while. So yah, from now on, I'll try my best. Cause i now know what was wrong. Through accepting my mistakes, i can make a change.

Studies, well yah, everyone would say the same thing, they havent been focused.

Well, im gonna say that too. Like monster told me before, studies werent his priority in sec 1 and 2. And now, he realises his mistakes and tries to focus. I wanna be like that too.

Focusing too much on relationships, guys and love isnt as good as what others think okay? So dont guys. Dont get into such mess.

All, i have no idea. All the other stuff thats important lahh.

My friendship with my girls have been better lately. Getting pretty close with Humairah Cantik, Nina, Izyan, Nisa, Natrah and of course, Nadiah.

Jannah, idk what happen to you. Suddenly you dont sit with us anymore. You also barely talk to us. What happen babe? Mind telling me? Cause you know, im here for you. I dont want to have friendship problems like last year anymore. Bad memories, but its all good now.

So please Jann, speak up to me. okay? :)

Hmm, normal blogging time.

yah, see the three pics? Its all of us who went to little india on 20th feb. :) it was a great saturday spent with them. eventhough i didnt spend the WHOLE day with them, cause i missed out on the VIVO part. -.-, nvm! religious class is more important. HAHA. :D

Lately, i've been sleeping quite late. been busy with school, homework and netball. GAHH! we have to attend ALL trainings men! DAMN IT! nvm! we've gotta fight for the main 12. hmm, oh yah, CT is next week. RIGHT? shit, cant rmmbr, i need to check again. so yah, its kindda late. cause some sch's are like starting/finishing ready. hmmph.. study3.. grrr..

Okay guys, hope you enjoy my new blog skin. and sorry if there's no Tagboard. like i posted, if there's anyth, beep me alright. (:

Love ya! :)

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

2010-02-16T13:06:00.002+08:00

hey all! okay, im a dead blogger menz! damn it! busy busy busy! grr! but luckily zonals are over, at least have a bit more time to post i guess? idk. damn it!

okay, now, the naive bitch is gonna start talking okay? haha! :D dude, i stupidly believe u, AGAIN. but why? cause i still like you. cause im giving you the chance to prove to me you can be a good guy. but you fooled be AGAIN huh? WHY? now, 1 week later, you come back texting me. saying "heyy.." but yah, i didnt know it was YOU. cause i already deleted your number. and when i asked who are you, no reply. why ah? cause you realise that i was really pissed at you, or cause u just dont bother talking to me already? damn u dude, damn u. and the worst part is, i see you everyweek. grr! BABU! KEDI! ASS! JERK! FAGGOT!

okay, the bitch's done talking about that. gahh! im posting crap menzzzzzz! help me ppl! i feel lost all of a sudden!!!!! :((((((((

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

2010-02-09T15:05:00.002+08:00

GAHH!!
MY BLOG'S DEAD! SORRY!
HAVE BEEN BUSY LATELY, EVERY DAY STAY BACK. OKAY, I KNOW THIS IS GETTING LAME, BUT AT LEAST IM POSTING RIGHT? HEHE (:

-i'd risk everyth i have for you, but i wont. and i wont say sorry, cause i dont think its even my fault. you JERK. COWARD! GDL YOU DAMN THING!

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

2010-02-01T16:03:00.001+08:00

GAHH!! DEAD BLOGG! SORRY! REALLY2 HAVE NTH ELSE TO SAY LATELY. :P

2010-01-17T14:25:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, had religious class. erm, went alone? yah.
So erm, class was awesome. really2 awesome. haha, better than last year lahh.
after that, went to get PSG then slacked with Haidah at my bus stop for like 40+ mins.
haha :D
suddenly " EHY! CIKGU HIZAM BODOH!"
as in not cikgu bodoh lahh, just a word i said cause i was freaking shocked. haha.
he passed by my bus stop but didnt realize us.
yada3.
texted ......, laugh here laugh there.
and yah, thats all.
OHH! and now my blog's not private ready.
due to izyan's request. (:
Monday, hopefully no training, cause i have A LOT to do.
tuesday, west zone starts.
vs Commenwealth.
damn!
hopefully we win ahh, so that i can tell Kak Ida that my school won her school again.
haha! amin.
lols.
okay, my art t'cher is an ASS.
haha, random, but true.
lols.
give a hell lot of homework only!
pft! -.-
GAHH! gonna miss percussive on tuesday.. )):
nvm!
jiayou!
go netball! haha :D

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

2010-01-13T20:23:00.002+08:00

OMG OMG OMG! 1 WEEK+ OF NOT POSTING!! HAHA. :D SORRY PEOPLE!!

so yah, first week was okay. except for the story about Monster. -.-, pfft! nvm. erm, today had like netball try-outs? ohh, and tmrw too. SHIT! need stay back tmrw. To do PW and netball. F! haha. so yah, eventhough im not explaining that much, i am freaking busy lately. So maybe, for these few days, i wont be posting that much. okay? sorry. :D urhm, west-zone competition next tuesday? yah, next tuesday. damn it! gonna miss my beloved percussive movements. DAMN! nvm, all for the school and team. but like, idk why, today caoch didnt pick me to play at all lahh. nvm, maybe she's trying michelle out first. ohh yah! and erm, maybe by tmrw can get my jersey if mum signs the thinggy ready. hmmph. okay, there's nth left for me to say here..? i guess. sorry! ))):

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

start of school term

2010-01-05T20:27:00.002+08:00

As the sun starts to set, my feelings for you did too.

I am fortunate that this happened.

No longer can i have you in my heart.

"what for love somebody if the person no longer here"

Yes, i agree to that, now.

I hope it wasnt too late.

Dude, enjoy your life.

You ignored my msg and you didnt even bother asking why i didnt attend class.

You seem to be distracted.

May you be too distracted for you O's too.

Okay, so the starting wasnt too good. But i finally realized and slowly am trying to forget him. Thanx people for cheering me up and stuff. Okay, first day of school. Hmm. Was supposed to go to school with Syaza and Nadya right? Too bad menz! They left early. But they were still late.-.-, haha. So since it was raining, met Gracia then walked to school with her. Saw her ------- which she did during the school holidays, freaking nice. Haha :D erm, i dont think i actually have much to say lahh. Just that now 2D got 2 new comers. Poh Hein and Peng Han. Welcome (: erm, ohh and i got class welfare? Together with Asyraf (-.-), Jedd and my lezz, Nadiah.

Today, i guess it went better. Although my body was aching from training. 2 weeks never train mah. Agree? erm, ohh yah, i got percussive anyway, for those who doesnt know. and apparently, im the only malay girl. Luckily got matien, at least somebody to understand my language. :) other than Bo Yi and Willy of course. erm, yah. Today, finally got to forget about SOMEBODY bit by bit. Cause that lezz partner of mine, went to text A*** something. -.-, damn you Nad. Haha, but thanx though. Tomorrow, there'll be training again. Damn! Gonna suffer cause my leg still hurts men. Hopefully can run full 4 rounds ah. :) OHH! and nads and I saw ........ nvm, useless to say who.

perasaan ku terhadapmu semakin berkurangan. Alhamdulillah. Namun, adalah hatiku ini sudah dimiliki orang lain? Tolong, aku cuma ingin berkawan sahaja denganmu buat sementara waktu ini. Aku tidak mahu terus ke alam percintaan sekali lagi. Sekurang-kurangnya, tunggu sehingga genap 1 tahun ku bersendirian? Kerna jikalau benar kau menyukai ku, tolong sabar. Ohh, dan jangan malu ya? :)

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

2010-01-02T16:12:00.002+08:00

MUHAMMAD AQIL BIN AZHAR!
you rock and suck. haha.
convo:

Aqil:
*** ah
ngan satu senior
walao
baju..
ish ish
Sya17
haha.
tube ke singlet?
Aqil
singlet
low cut some more
sya17
ohh, macam minah2 sekarang ahh.
ape dorang tahu malu?
betul?
Aqil
betol betol betol
sya17
then wear long pants or short?
Aqil
hmm
tk perasan
sya17
haha, ohh! tak perasan pasal kau dah addicted dgn the top kan?!
HAHA!
Aqil
-.-
sya17
:D
Aqil
-.-

okay, so like the ** * refers to somebody we were talking about. haha. and GUYS! aqil said first day of madrasah can wear anyth you know! but must tutup aurat ahh. he wearing like long sleeve tee, jeans and cap. -.-, then the mat topic came along. haha. :D i won him at every convo, except for the height topic. DAMN! ohh, got one more!

Aqil
profile pic fb kau binatang aper?
sya17
erm, udang gala.
like lobster like that ahh.
Aqil
ooh
aku aqil gala
sya17
???
Aqil
loll
kan aku TINGGI
mcm GALA

haha, i know, his LAME. lols.

erm, seriously, i've been bonding with my qps friends lately. Andre, Amir Qawiem, Faris, Syaza, Nadya, Nisa and yah, Aqil. not to forget by bestest Haidah, Sabs and Afifah lahh. eventhough we havent been talking crap that much lately. haizzz. so i think, 2010 is a great start. like what kak fiena said lahh. 2010, start fresh or smth. hmm, since switching on the comp, i've been listening to whatcha say. idk why. haha. ohh, and NADIAH is evil. as per normal. she added SOMEBODY on fb. damn! obvious much lahh babe! the other mutual friends are all like my ngaji friends lehs! and his adik lahh of course. hmmph.. school's starting soon. 2 more days? yah. gg with syaza and nadya. wait, i think i said that already. haha. Nisa, Amir, Nadiah, Khairunnisa and Kak Fiena knows about SOMEBODY ready. but hmm.. what to do. Kak Fiena somehow cheered me up but then like yah, it wasnt really helping. "dua kali? aik? itu tandanya dia akan break up dgn matair dia. hahaha, pandai2 aje lah aku ni." haha. now, listening to Just Let it go. nice song. :) ohh and to qps ppl, i wont be gg to qps on the first day of sch. i've got training. -.- DAMN! havent do journal. haha. so yeah, sorry. if your like hopping to see me, text me. haha, AS IF LAHH!

hmmph, tmrw, there'll be kenduri here. kindda weird cause i am really not sure whats it for. granny, your not that recovered yet. but nvm lah. amin, dah boleh jalan. biting my lips. ohh shit! should have thought about flashbacks! now im having FLASHBACKS! damn! but yah, i bite also cause im unsure. idk what about or why. weird. hmmph.

Aku berasa bersalah kerana mengharapkan kau dgn nya tak akan bertahan lama. tetapi apa kan daya? aku sudah menyukai mu. buat sementara ini, aku tidak dapat memirkan apa-apa pun yang dapat membuatku melupakanmu. mungkin, selepas kau sudah putus dgn nya, kau akan cuba mendekatinya lagi. ataupun, mendekatiku. tetapi jikalau itu terjadi, apa yang sepatutnya ku lakukan? mendekatimu juga atau menjauhimu sayang? ciri-ciri yang kau ada, mungkin cukup buat ku. tapi aku takut. takut kau akan menduakan ku, ataupun menggunakan ku. aku tak nak itu terjadi. aku serik menyesal. aku serik berasa bersalah. jika kau masih menyukaiku, cukup lah menyakitkan hatiku. sayang, mengapa bila ku tanya mu jikalau kau menyukai nya ataupun tidak, jawapan mu hanya entah and tidak tahu? kau tidak pasti? kalau itu jawapan mu, mengapa kau kembali bersamanya apabila kau mengatakan yang kau suka padaku? kata-kata mu bermakna atau tidak?! janji mu. semua tidak bertulang bukan? haha sekadar untuk mendapat apa yang kau mahu! tapi mengapa? mengapa aku yang kau pilih? sebab aku masih muda? masih kecik untuk memahami semua ini? YES IM IMMATURE! but you have no freaking right to lie to me, to even use me! use me in any way! aku tak sabar nak jumpa mu. entah mengapa. mungkin ku ingin menunjukmu yg ku tidak memerlukan mu? ataupun untuk menunjukkan bahawa KAU telah memusnahkan hidupku!? ku kurang pasti. sudahlah sayang, cukup bersendiwara. jaga dia. sayangi dia. GUNAKANnya. itu, sudah pasti.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

A look back at the past

2010-01-01T16:29:00.003+08:00

the colours somehow explains it all.
there's hurt, sadness, hapiness and love. all those happened in 2009.
i was actually scared to go to school on the 2nd jan. i even texted my cousin but was too dumb to off my phone when she wanted to talk to me.
my first friend would have been Natrah. Nur Sufiqah Natrah. that cute babe of mine. Second would be Nurul Nadiah Binte Muhd Sharif i guess. then i think Jannah, Nisa, Izyan and then Nina. Jannah would be when she saw this one dude digging his nose and wipping in on his OP bag. what a disgrace to OP bags dude! way to go! Nisa and Izyan would be when we were trying out for Basketball and Nina, i cant rmmbr. Sorry nin! :p 9 jan, im sure natrah still rmmbrs it. KHBT. welcome to my life. but it didnt last long though. then, MHBMA. same thing. it took me the longest time to forget him. my KSS friends would agree. but on the 16 feb.. -.-, faris. because of him, my friendship with Nisa and the others was ruined. not natrah lah. slowly, it became better cause duhh, they broke up! haha. :D but nisa didnt regret though, cause it made her learn a lesson. and for me, i dont regret like hating their relationship cause i was trying to save Nisa. opps. haha, sorry bro. Then Zack and Amsyar came to the pic. -.-, ruined too. but i wasnt together with them, just crush. Amsyar, finally, after a long time of not hearing from him, midnight he texted me and we started to talk a little. Zack, idk. But yes, as time passes by, my friendship with each of my friends had gotten better. even with arvind. -.- haha. Studies, was considered okay for me since its my first year. ohh, and like on the 28, suddenly SOMEBODY came back to the picture. i was really happy he was talking to me. but hey, didnt turn up good either. his the only crush of mine who said he liked me. but dude, what happen? suddenly change your mind huh? its okay, i had enough of talking about you. 2009, also the year almost everyone changed. changed personality and everything. friends too. mostly, from good to bad. not the the other way round. why? cause of trend? damn the trend! urgh. but luckily, i still somehow saved myself. cause i realized a lot of things before midnight. 1. dont trust guys so easily. 2. friendship is better than relationship. 3. studies is important.
maybe a little more than that but thats all i can think of now. 2009, a year of ups and downs.

2010, your here. officially here. would you save me? would you make me mature and smart enough? i need a change. i know, ups and downs are not avoidable. but can we lessen it? make it normal and full of ups. i want to learn from my mistakes. i really do. and i really2 wanna forget about my feelings towards you, SOMEBODY. its been 1 year since i liked you. and will it still take 1 year for me to like, forget you? 2010, i wanna study harder. i wanna pass my english with flying colours. history and geog too. i wanna succeed this year. i too wanna have a brighter future. i still wanna love. but i only wanna love people who loves me back. trully do. i wanna stay with my babes as much as possible. stay focused on my "mission" and 2011 would come easily. hopefully it will guys. to friends, please support me. cause i cant succeed w/o your support. and yah, distraction too. can? im really hoping that from you guys. not treats, not money. support. HELP. :)

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

a bright new start, welcoming a better person. hopefully.

2010-01-01T00:04:00.001+08:00

Happy new year. :)
celebrated with like syaza. kimberly suddenly pop out. haha!
and thanx syaza, faris, nisa and sabrina for cheering me up!
i really2 hope 2010 will be better.

2009-12-31T21:10:00.002+08:00

hello! okay, as ca be seen, this is like my 2nd post for the day. erm, for now, its about what nisa say on her blog about me. omg, i sound like we are still fighting! lols.

yeaps yeaps. betul. experience ah kite. lols. haizzz. tapi aku ni pun selenge lah senang kate. dah tahu aku tngh geram, tak tau nak delete msg2 die. ade lagi aku terbace-bace. dumb dumb! tapi bile aku baru2 ni bace lagi, aku baru dapat tau yg betul, die somehow heartless. ehy, he even said to me once, "dah lahh.rbk ah u!" ape tak aku geram. aku reply, "ehy..! baru sikit2 dah nak melenting per?" haha! see, i can be fierce. lols. so yah, back to the point. erm, mcm bende2 yg die cakap, i thought it would be like comforting or like sweet or senang kate, nice lah kan. tapi in the end reply bende simple. to make it sweet pun add bby jer kat belakang. tu pun aku cair! kau tngk! bodoh kan! but somehow, its not that wrong to melt cause somebody called u bby lahh. unless his 22 and FAT! haha! opps, sorry2. :) crap again kan aku, TNGK! ahh, part kene cari tu, aku susah sikit. bile aku suruh Faris cari, tak gune. dah lepaskan aku ngan org die kenalkan rapat, BARULAH die nak cakap kawan die tu ASS. -.-, faris faris.. erm, then like, if i wanna find, where? how? aku tak de tagged. aku tak rase pun aku nak buat tagged. :) no offence. erm, them like almost every where i go, semue dah bercouple-couple. i dont really get to know ppl as easily as you do babe. somehow, mcm budak baik ahh ehy. haha! macam betul jer.. go with the flow? hmm.. half paham, half tak paham. boleh tolong jelaskan or tunjukkan on monday? u still have to talk to me you know. rmmbr? haha! last paragraph, insyaallah babe. tapi macam nadiah kate, i look happier if i text with guys. amcm? tapi in the end, bad results jugak lah kan. haizzz... and yah, sayang kamu too! :)) thanx for like listening to me babe. erm, kau jer sorang selain aku dgn die yg tahu pasal ape die cakap. i think. unless he tells his gf lahh, which cannot be... kan mataer die nak jage die "baek2" BLUEK! kene tipu lahh lu! that guy said he texting a friend, girl. ahh, senang2 jer the girl kasi die bebual ngan aku. in the end, tak reply. bagus ahh tu. tengok tengok..

guys, frankly, im like having mood swing. but it doesnt really go up and down that much.. mostly down. only when i make a fool of myself when talking to nisa and sabrina cousin, then im kindda happy. if not, i've been quiet. just repeating the song Bila Rindu and listening to it. until like mum asked me to remove the earpiece. haizzz.. sorry mum. im like spoiling your anniversary. not only your alone, you have a daugther who's currently moody. happy anniversary mum. i love you! <3

aww, mum showed me her wedding album moments ago.. haizzz. :( ayah, i miss you.

boy, i cant deny that i like you. thats why its hard for me to forget about you. but in the afternoon, the way you texted me, it made me feel like 2 days ago. why? you know you cant do that anymore. like you said to her, your just texting a friend. and hey, i really dont know whether i can still cherish your words. that you still like me. do you? i cant cry you know?! idk why. maybe cause i learned, from all my friends that its worthless! worthless to cry for somebody who doesnt know im crying! but hey, doesnt mean i dont cry, im not sad. i am. i try veryvery hard to keep it in me. i only showed part of how i feel to my family. not all yet. should i show it to you tmrw night? ohh, maybe you wont even realize it! cause you'll be busy otp with her. right? instead of like "waiting" for me, you'd just head up stairs and leave. easy right for you to say bye bye? -.-

-SyahirahKamaruizaman. (moody girl)

2009-12-31T11:10:00.002+08:00

Sya! you bitch! learn your freaking lesson lah! listen to what people have to say instead of being ego! trust only those who can be trusted! history has repeated itself lahh! 3 times ready bitch! one more time and depression will happen to you! F*ck you sya! better learn your lesson before you cant even forgive yourself!

okay, sorry for the words? lols. its for myself. thanx nisa and faris for somehow cheering me up. wait, the somehow only refers to faris. nisa, for cheering me up lahh. thanx many many. somehow, its a good thing that i realized my freaking mistakes before the new year. but bad, cause its a little too late. and hey, i take back my words. i dont enjoy yesterday. okay? boleh? nadiah, not about you. although you did make me thing SOMEBODY was texting me AND that you almost lost my paper. its someone else and i dont wish to share it here. only nisa knows. but not all. just some parts. i liked reading nisa's post. about the moving on thing. both of us are having problems with it this year. hopefully, kite maju same2 lahh nisa yer? thanx you guys for not maki-ing me whenever i start talking crap. i tend to do so to cheer myself up. like what i did with nisa moments ago. well, i cant talk crap to myself right? cause if i do, FLASHBACKS! no, enough with the flashbacks. look forward. not backwards. cause what's done is done. what's gone, is gone. be more mature to dare myself move forward. dont be scared. Sya, dont be used anymore. eventhough SOMEBODY said no. sya, since history has repeated itself, learn the lesson. Guys, anyone can help me? i wanna know how to know if somebody is good enough to be trusted and loved. please, cause maybe for now, i'd need it. and NISA! kalau die msg aku lagi like nak buat baik mcm mane? aku masih ....... tau! haizzz.. tmrw, really2 dont feel like gg ngaji men. damn! because of SOMEBODY lahh! why must be there one? trying to rub it in my face ahh that you have gf?! fuck you only lahh! sorry, mean. haizzz. so since everyone is in the mood to say happy new year, i'll say it too okay?

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL! MAY 2010 BE A BLESSED AND AWESOME YEAR FOR ALL! WISH ME THE BEST TOO! CAUSE I'LL SURELY NEED IT! :))))) 2009, GO DIE! MEMORIES!

lols right? i know. haha, lame. ohh! i had fun too texting nadya sayang.. gg to sch with her and syaza on monday. :) weee. hopefully, their friendship would be better with me around. haha! or not. opps! ohh! my morning was terrible. cause of SOMEBODY! nisa, you know, i know.

guys dont have hearts ahh? they say things w/o thinking whether it will effect others or not.. main hembus jer! ehy, girls are not tissue! you cant just use them, do whatever you want to them and throw them away. guys like that are JERKS! tak berhati perut langsung! when will I find my prince? next year? hopefully. for now, maybe my relationship/FRIENDSHIP with SOMEBODY is nothing. but im scared, if he comes back to me. OMG! i feel like nadya! spare tyre! haha! :D sorry nadya. lols. okay, apparently i made another paragraph for nth. cause its mostly random junk. so sorry. i'll end here. BYE! :D love u guys and hope to see a GREAT GOOD difference next year.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

bila rindu, terkenangmu sayang. ku rasa sayu, syahdunya jiwaku bila malam, makin kelam. jauh terbang diriku melayang.

2009-12-30T21:27:00.003+08:00

YESSAHH!
finally uploaded the batam pics. next round, dinner at river view hotel. :) To afifah and haidah, sorry. havent upload the pics yet. :( ohh the pics with nads also need to upload. shits! sorry friends.

today, as i said at FB, its awesome! seriously. erm, yada3.. then met nads. walk around cwp and civic. bought starbucks. RP. apparently, SOMEBODY was too scared to go inside. so we slacked at admiralty park. luckily wasnt hot. hmm.. went home with nads, watched iCarly for a while then she went to interchange. ohh! congrats gracia for the .... you know, i know, we know. haha! :D i wanna see! lols. erm, nisa is sick today. erm, me and nads didnt felt good. hmm..

Tmrw, need to fast again. if tmrw i manage to fast, it means, i only have like 8 more days to pay back. hmm, hopefully can manage lahh. haha. OKAY! i guess im done now. happy new year to all? lols.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

22-12-09

2009-12-22T16:31:00.002+08:00

Okay, now i feel like posting. Cause a lot happened today. So like, in the morning, breakfast a little then went to Limbang. Waited for Nadiah and bought breakfast for myself. Then we walked to Yew Tee Point cause nads wanted to eat BK. Then bus-ed to Lot 1. Walked around Cotton On then to Aries and to Library. Saw Cindy and Hui Kea. damn the library! okay, that part, later can talk. so did project yada3. ohh, and saw zack at macs. -.-, dye and tindik liao. we stayed in the library for like 1h i think. then this one freaking dude came to me and nads. -.-, lets call him, paramjit. haha :D sorry, its just that he looks like him. then, he started asking for my number while that freaking ZAHIER!!! hid behind the wall. then he asked for nads one too so i typed it in for her lah. yada3. left library and walked around lot 1 then out of lot 1 cause we walked to talk to Nisa. HAHA :D nisa nisa, kesian kau nisa.. nvm, next wed kay? (: yada3.. Zahier texted nads.. bla3.. go die, GO DIE! then bought hair band and flip flops and mini toons. damn that chinese auntie who told mine lahh! -.- trained and bused home. bused cause i really wanted to chill. otw home, texted amira cousin. she is AWESOME! now, yah, blogging. sorry if its been boring.

Fuck this life! Cause i know, each night when i cry, there wont be anyone who realises it. When i speak, it just sounds to them life a pin drop. But what would happen if someday, I'm gone? Would they still react this way, or would their lifes be much better? Deep inside, i know, all those encouraging words, lovey-dovey words, hugs and kisses and not to forget jokes, are just plain old lies, fake and acting. Dad, would my life be better if you're still here?

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

2009-12-15T21:48:00.002+08:00

That girl is seriously a/an ------. URGH! i dont even know how to freaking name her! ehy, you really dotn regard me as a -------- anymore right?! FUCK YOU LAHH! ehy, i was damn stupid to view your blog when im like freaking upset ready sia! damn youuuuu!!!!!!

2009-12-15T21:20:00.002+08:00

i know, i wasnt active. sorry if you guys were hoping i'd post.

friday was yah, netball match at anderson. then saturday, went to outram and jb. sunday, 2 weddings at bukit gombak and jurong west. then one at night, river view hotel. monday, went to AMP with inu to play netball then to religious class at night. today, went to catch a movie with nadiah, newmoon, at cck. tomorrow, match at commenwealth then to cik imah's house for Band Hero-ing.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

2009-12-10T21:17:00.003+08:00

Girl, i really2 think your a bitch now! One freaking bitch i tell you! You've changed a lot! your looks, the way you talk and the way you treat me! i guess you have forgotten huh? you see me you dont bother coming to me like you used too. Okay fine, i know your reason would be we dont really talk that much anymore and we're in different schs. But what about your other old friends? your still close with some of them right? yah yah, you have your own cliques.. but i really cant help it that you have forgotten me.. forgotten what your suppose to treat me like! Your rich. So? You have all those stuff that minahs now a days have.. jadi kirekan kau ni sekarang minah lahh yer? So, since you have forgotten about me, i dont even wanna bother texting you soon! i dont wanna wish you anyth! and i take back what i said. I WILL NOT BUY FOR YOU YOUR BELATED BIRTHDAY PRESENT. and yah, this years birthday present too. Cause at the end of the day, you'll still forget about me. you treat me that way, fine. What for i try to be nice to you but your not even realising it right? ohh hey, actually, i just wasted my time.. typing all this.. cause i know, you wont even bother READING IT! tell you what, you go live your own life kay? i really2 dont wanna talk to you right now..

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.