Sya! you bitch! learn your freaking lesson lah! listen to what people have to say instead of being ego! trust only those who can be trusted! history has repeated itself lahh! 3 times ready bitch! one more time and depression will happen to you! F*ck you sya! better learn your lesson before you cant even forgive yourself!

okay, sorry for the words? lols. its for myself. thanx nisa and faris for somehow cheering me up. wait, the somehow only refers to faris. nisa, for cheering me up lahh. thanx many many. somehow, its a good thing that i realized my freaking mistakes before the new year. but bad, cause its a little too late. and hey, i take back my words. i dont enjoy yesterday. okay? boleh? nadiah, not about you. although you did make me thing SOMEBODY was texting me AND that you almost lost my paper. its someone else and i dont wish to share it here. only nisa knows. but not all. just some parts. i liked reading nisa's post. about the moving on thing. both of us are having problems with it this year. hopefully, kite maju same2 lahh nisa yer? thanx you guys for not maki-ing me whenever i start talking crap. i tend to do so to cheer myself up. like what i did with nisa moments ago. well, i cant talk crap to myself right? cause if i do, FLASHBACKS! no, enough with the flashbacks. look forward. not backwards. cause what's done is done. what's gone, is gone. be more mature to dare myself move forward. dont be scared. Sya, dont be used anymore. eventhough SOMEBODY said no. sya, since history has repeated itself, learn the lesson. Guys, anyone can help me? i wanna know how to know if somebody is good enough to be trusted and loved. please, cause maybe for now, i'd need it. and NISA! kalau die msg aku lagi like nak buat baik mcm mane? aku masih ....... tau! haizzz.. tmrw, really2 dont feel like gg ngaji men. damn! because of SOMEBODY lahh! why must be there one? trying to rub it in my face ahh that you have gf?! fuck you only lahh! sorry, mean. haizzz. so since everyone is in the mood to say happy new year, i'll say it too okay?

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL! MAY 2010 BE A BLESSED AND AWESOME YEAR FOR ALL! WISH ME THE BEST TOO! CAUSE I'LL SURELY NEED IT! :))))) 2009, GO DIE! MEMORIES!

lols right? i know. haha, lame. ohh! i had fun too texting nadya sayang.. gg to sch with her and syaza on monday. :) weee. hopefully, their friendship would be better with me around. haha! or not. opps! ohh! my morning was terrible. cause of SOMEBODY! nisa, you know, i know.

guys dont have hearts ahh? they say things w/o thinking whether it will effect others or not.. main hembus jer! ehy, girls are not tissue! you cant just use them, do whatever you want to them and throw them away. guys like that are JERKS! tak berhati perut langsung! when will I find my prince? next year? hopefully. for now, maybe my relationship/FRIENDSHIP with SOMEBODY is nothing. but im scared, if he comes back to me. OMG! i feel like nadya! spare tyre! haha! :D sorry nadya. lols. okay, apparently i made another paragraph for nth. cause its mostly random junk. so sorry. i'll end here. BYE! :D love u guys and hope to see a GREAT GOOD difference next year.

-SyahirahKamaruizaman.

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