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SYAHIRAH K.
14
Loves things that makes her feel relaxed.
Mood swings~
Not good at art, but loves to make it a place to express my feelings and thoughts.
Fragile
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Friday, January 1, 2010
A look back at the past @ Friday, January 01, 2010
the colours somehow explains it all.
there's hurt, sadness, hapiness and love. all those happened in 2009.
i was actually scared to go to school on the 2nd jan. i even texted my cousin but was too dumb to off my phone when she wanted to talk to me.
my first friend would have been Natrah. Nur Sufiqah Natrah. that cute babe of mine. Second would be Nurul Nadiah Binte Muhd Sharif i guess. then i think Jannah, Nisa, Izyan and then Nina. Jannah would be when she saw this one dude digging his nose and wipping in on his OP bag. what a disgrace to OP bags dude! way to go! Nisa and Izyan would be when we were trying out for Basketball and Nina, i cant rmmbr. Sorry nin! :p 9 jan, im sure natrah still rmmbrs it. KHBT. welcome to my life. but it didnt last long though. then, MHBMA. same thing. it took me the longest time to forget him. my KSS friends would agree. but on the 16 feb.. -.-, faris. because of him, my friendship with Nisa and the others was ruined. not natrah lah. slowly, it became better cause duhh, they broke up! haha. :D but nisa didnt regret though, cause it made her learn a lesson. and for me, i dont regret like hating their relationship cause i was trying to save Nisa. opps. haha, sorry bro. Then Zack and Amsyar came to the pic. -.-, ruined too. but i wasnt together with them, just crush. Amsyar, finally, after a long time of not hearing from him, midnight he texted me and we started to talk a little. Zack, idk. But yes, as time passes by, my friendship with each of my friends had gotten better. even with arvind. -.- haha. Studies, was considered okay for me since its my first year. ohh, and like on the 28, suddenly SOMEBODY came back to the picture. i was really happy he was talking to me. but hey, didnt turn up good either. his the only crush of mine who said he liked me. but dude, what happen? suddenly change your mind huh? its okay, i had enough of talking about you. 2009, also the year almost everyone changed. changed personality and everything. friends too. mostly, from good to bad. not the the other way round. why? cause of trend? damn the trend! urgh. but luckily, i still somehow saved myself. cause i realized a lot of things before midnight. 1. dont trust guys so easily. 2. friendship is better than relationship. 3. studies is important.
maybe a little more than that but thats all i can think of now. 2009, a year of ups and downs.
2010, your here. officially here. would you save me? would you make me mature and smart enough? i need a change. i know, ups and downs are not avoidable. but can we lessen it? make it normal and full of ups. i want to learn from my mistakes. i really do. and i really2 wanna forget about my feelings towards you, SOMEBODY. its been 1 year since i liked you. and will it still take 1 year for me to like, forget you? 2010, i wanna study harder. i wanna pass my english with flying colours. history and geog too. i wanna succeed this year. i too wanna have a brighter future. i still wanna love. but i only wanna love people who loves me back. trully do. i wanna stay with my babes as much as possible. stay focused on my "mission" and 2011 would come easily. hopefully it will guys. to friends, please support me. cause i cant succeed w/o your support. and yah, distraction too. can? im really hoping that from you guys. not treats, not money. support. HELP. :)
-SyahirahKamaruizaman.
a bright new start, welcoming a better person. hopefully.