about
you think you know me.
SYAHIRAH K.
14
Loves things that makes her feel relaxed.
Mood swings~
Not good at art, but loves to make it a place to express my feelings and thoughts.
Fragile
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Saturday, January 2, 2010
@ Saturday, January 02, 2010
MUHAMMAD AQIL BIN AZHAR!
you rock and suck. haha.
convo:
Aqil:
*** ah
ngan satu senior
walao
baju..
ish ish
Sya17
haha.
tube ke singlet?
Aqil
singlet
low cut some more
sya17
ohh, macam minah2 sekarang ahh.
ape dorang tahu malu?
betul?
Aqil
betol betol betol
sya17
then wear long pants or short?
Aqil
hmm
tk perasan
sya17
haha, ohh! tak perasan pasal kau dah addicted dgn the top kan?!
HAHA!
Aqil
-.-
sya17
:D
Aqil
-.-
okay, so like the ** * refers to somebody we were talking about. haha. and GUYS! aqil said first day of madrasah can wear anyth you know! but must tutup aurat ahh. he wearing like long sleeve tee, jeans and cap. -.-, then the mat topic came along. haha. :D i won him at every convo, except for the height topic. DAMN! ohh, got one more!
Aqil
profile pic fb kau binatang aper?
sya17
erm, udang gala.
like lobster like that ahh.
Aqil
ooh
aku aqil gala
sya17
???
Aqil
loll
kan aku TINGGI
mcm GALA
haha, i know, his LAME. lols.
erm, seriously, i've been bonding with my qps friends lately. Andre, Amir Qawiem, Faris, Syaza, Nadya, Nisa and yah, Aqil. not to forget by bestest Haidah, Sabs and Afifah lahh. eventhough we havent been talking crap that much lately. haizzz. so i think, 2010 is a great start. like what kak fiena said lahh. 2010, start fresh or smth. hmm, since switching on the comp, i've been listening to whatcha say. idk why. haha. ohh, and NADIAH is evil. as per normal. she added SOMEBODY on fb. damn! obvious much lahh babe! the other mutual friends are all like my ngaji friends lehs! and his adik lahh of course. hmmph.. school's starting soon. 2 more days? yah. gg with syaza and nadya. wait, i think i said that already. haha. Nisa, Amir, Nadiah, Khairunnisa and Kak Fiena knows about SOMEBODY ready. but hmm.. what to do. Kak Fiena somehow cheered me up but then like yah, it wasnt really helping. "dua kali? aik? itu tandanya dia akan break up dgn matair dia. hahaha, pandai2 aje lah aku ni." haha. now, listening to Just Let it go. nice song. :) ohh and to qps ppl, i wont be gg to qps on the first day of sch. i've got training. -.- DAMN! havent do journal. haha. so yeah, sorry. if your like hopping to see me, text me. haha, AS IF LAHH!
hmmph, tmrw, there'll be kenduri here. kindda weird cause i am really not sure whats it for. granny, your not that recovered yet. but nvm lah. amin, dah boleh jalan. biting my lips. ohh shit! should have thought about flashbacks! now im having FLASHBACKS! damn! but yah, i bite also cause im unsure. idk what about or why. weird. hmmph.
Aku berasa bersalah kerana mengharapkan kau dgn nya tak akan bertahan lama. tetapi apa kan daya? aku sudah menyukai mu. buat sementara ini, aku tidak dapat memirkan apa-apa pun yang dapat membuatku melupakanmu. mungkin, selepas kau sudah putus dgn nya, kau akan cuba mendekatinya lagi. ataupun, mendekatiku. tetapi jikalau itu terjadi, apa yang sepatutnya ku lakukan? mendekatimu juga atau menjauhimu sayang? ciri-ciri yang kau ada, mungkin cukup buat ku. tapi aku takut. takut kau akan menduakan ku, ataupun menggunakan ku. aku tak nak itu terjadi. aku serik menyesal. aku serik berasa bersalah. jika kau masih menyukaiku, cukup lah menyakitkan hatiku. sayang, mengapa bila ku tanya mu jikalau kau menyukai nya ataupun tidak, jawapan mu hanya entah and tidak tahu? kau tidak pasti? kalau itu jawapan mu, mengapa kau kembali bersamanya apabila kau mengatakan yang kau suka padaku? kata-kata mu bermakna atau tidak?! janji mu. semua tidak bertulang bukan? haha sekadar untuk mendapat apa yang kau mahu! tapi mengapa? mengapa aku yang kau pilih? sebab aku masih muda? masih kecik untuk memahami semua ini? YES IM IMMATURE! but you have no freaking right to lie to me, to even use me! use me in any way! aku tak sabar nak jumpa mu. entah mengapa. mungkin ku ingin menunjukmu yg ku tidak memerlukan mu? ataupun untuk menunjukkan bahawa KAU telah memusnahkan hidupku!? ku kurang pasti. sudahlah sayang, cukup bersendiwara. jaga dia. sayangi dia. GUNAKANnya. itu, sudah pasti.
-SyahirahKamaruizaman.